Learning....

Two weeks ago today, a guy I come into contact with at work on occassion, called my office. He pretended to be calling for my boss, but my boss wasn't there.  The conversation turned slightly personal, discussing his visit to my office two weeks prior to that.  He said i had pretty feet. ( I go barefoot at work most days...It's the South. It's always hot.)  He said I was funny and pretty and all sorts of things a divorced woman wants and needs to hear.  He asked if he could call again. Of course, I said "Sure!"....I left work that day on Cloud 9. I called my best friend and gushed. When I hung up with her, still on C9, I literally thought to myself "I want to remember....how this moment feels....even if he never calls again, I want to remember how this feels."  He did call, every day for a week.  The past week, no calls.  He's busy, I know.  We don't want my boss to know we're talking (uncomfortable). So it's difficult. But he didn't ask for my cell.  He didn't get my email address.  In this day and age of technology, communication should NOT be an issue. So the point is... instead of moping that he hasn't called, I'm honestly going to walk away from this situation believing that there is still "something" out there.  I don't want to walk away from this divorce jaded and bitter. Do I hate my STBX? Of course. Do I wish him run over by a bus? Absolutely.  But every man is going to have his challenges: none of them are perfect! They're MEN! But I don't want this divorce to render me emotionally paranoid.  I'm not looking for anything: hell, I'm not even fully out of the marriage yet. (Emotionally, yes: legally, no.)  But no matter how "tough" women talk, everyone wants to be loved. Everyone wants to share their lives, their stories, their triumphs and tragedies with another human being.  The ex's usually beat us down, emotionally at least. Having a man tell you that you are beautiful is exciting. Even if he never calls. If that man thinks I'm are beautiful, another man will come along that thinks I'm beautiful too.  It may take patience. But I've got time. If there is one thing I've learned, men will come and go, but your girlfriends are the ones who pick up the pieces.  It's my goal to stay positive and stay realistic so there are not so many pieces to be picked up anymore.