Early Release

So i was talking to my best friend today....and i actually typed the words "I am so over this blog."  It's not quite time to end the blog, per se.  This blog was about renaissance and starting over and discovering myself again as a non-married single mom.  I was worried about court. Yes, it was horrible but I saw him and it was all "meh...." 

So coming to this blog, and writing about "him" is not doing me any good anymore. Sure, I still mourn the "marriage" ...... Sure, I sometimes feel like a failure in that respect, but whatever! I'm not a failure. I made the best decision at the time, and it turned out to be the wrong decision. I'm not trying to abandon the blog, or any readers that I may or may not have. But maybe not having to post every day is a testament of how far I've come.  June 3rd, which would have been my ten year anniversary and the end of this blog, is a little over a month away. I already have plans with a friend of mine.  I am taking the day off work, and we are booking a half day at a local spa. Then we're going to my mom's house to swim in her pool the rest of the day, and sip margaritas.  Mind you, this celebration is not in honor of STBX.  It is in honor of the fact that I made it. Period. I lived down the road from him for a year. I saw him in court.  I passed him on the road. I saw pictures on facebook of him drinking and laughing and having a great time with friends who USED to be my friends too. And I made it.  NOT ONLY DID I MAKE IT, I was thankful that it wasn't me. I was thankful I am no longer married to him.  I am thankful...that I have MY life, not his.  So this blog has accomplished, a month in advance, everything I set out for it to do. I am not officially closing the blog, in case, GOD FORBID, I backslide. I can't imagine that happening at this point, but you never know.  I am already contemplating my next blog.  There again, I think it is a sign of PROGRESS.  I don't love him.  I don't hate him. I don't.... "anything".  It is what it is. I learned from the experience. I am a better person for it.  This is the new and improved me.  The happy me.  The ME i was always supposed to be. FTMF.  And all that goes along with that!